Saturday, July 30, 2011


From the Desk of Onesweetbell

My dear Peeps,

For my Sunday req this time, I decided to give you another completed story.  Some of you may have heard of it already but if you haven’t you are in for a treat.

Alphabet Weekends by the-glory-days

Who knew the alphabet could be so sexy and naughty.  After bad relationships and a dry spell, this is what happens when two friends/roommate needs to scratch that itch with no strings attached, or so they think.  Lots of imaginative uses for the letters A-Z.

As always, if you check it out please leave some love.
Until next time, I wish you peace, love and lots of sex!

Onesweetbell

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Teaers for 7-26-11

  We have a few teasers for you today including one by yours truly, Please be sure to let these lovely ladies know that you found the teaser on our blog and facebook page!  They will appreciate the love.


Lost In The Shadows  by lvtwilight09

It was almost two months after I stopped taking my birth control that everything just got to be too much, and Jasper and I had a huge blow out. I couldn’t stand it anymore and one night during dinner after the children were in bed, I just blurted out the question of whether or not he wanted a divorce. Jasper was adamant that he didn’t want one, that things were just hectic at work. I begged and pleaded for him to try to be home more and he argued that I needed to learn to be more understanding and more appreciative of how hard he worked to provide our family with a good life. We fought hard that night, throwing plates and glasses, but by the time it was over, Jasper and I ended up in our bedroom, with me pinned up against the wall as he took me roughly. I reveled in it, and loved every second of it. It was the first time in a long time that I felt any sort of connection to Jasper. Afterwards we fell asleep wrapped up in each other after finally really talking to each other.

Jasper agreed to try to be home more and I agreed to try to be more understanding about the demands of his job.  Little did Jasper know that I would end up pregnant that night. As much as I had accepted that Jasper didn’t want more children, all I could remember was how loving, caring and attentive he was when I was pregnant with Elliott, and how he was home all the time after I had given birth to Michael, so I made the decision to stop taking my birth control in the hopes that having another baby might help get us back on track. Needless to say Jasper was beyond pissed when I first told him and didn’t come home for a week. When he finally showed up again, he was happier. He told me he was okay with us having another child, but then followed that up with the announcement that he had gone and had a vasectomy to prevent any future “accidents” and that he wanted me to get my tubes tied after the baby was born just as an added preventative measure.



Dog Tags & White TShirts by LoveLikeWoah


“What the hell are you talking about?” My anger level was rising fast as he rambled on, throwing out excuse after excuse, not saying whatever it was that he wanted to say.
“You know damn well what I’m talking about. She was my best friend. And ya just … took her.”
“Jasper, I didn’t steal your friend. Bella still loves you, she still wants to spend time with you. What is this really about?” The confusion on my face must have sparked something inside him because now he was just as angry as I was.
“It’s about her. It’s always been about her.” We stared into each other’s eyes, waiting for something to happen. I knew he wasn’t finished, he was biding his time. I felt my brows turn in and my jaw tighten as I waited for him to admit the truth that I was just now realizing.
“I’m in love with Bella.” He said it with downcast eyes and a sigh in his voice. He couldn’t look me in the eye as he told me. There was no confidence in his claim. I wasn’t so sure I believed him, which made the situation all the more awkward. I wasn’t sure if he was afraid to tell the truth, which isn’t Jasper, or if he was lying to start a fight. Either way, a fight was what he got...


The Art of Love- Butterfly Betty

From that moment on, she’s been my life.” whispered Garrett as the other students came in. “See, I do know how hard it is to move past the pain. They need to see your art shine, honey.”

I looked at the other students who were settling on their stools in front of their canvases. I looked back at Garrett.

“Why? Why are my paintings so important?” I asked. He just looked at me for a moment before he turned and looked at his students.

“Why are you all in this class?” he asked them. They all looked confused. “Why are you studying art?”

“Because it’s beautiful.” said some girl in the back.

“What makes it beautiful?” asked Garrett.

“That depends on the piece.” she said. Garrett looked back at me and pointed to my painting sitting in the back.

“Will you show them?” asked Garrett.

“Ok.” I said. I went and picked up my painting and brought it to the front of the class. I turned it and showed it to the others. I heard several people gasp.

“What makes this painting beautiful?” asked Garrett.

“The passion of their embrace.” said the girl.

“The intimacy that is pouring off of it. It’s like I can feel their sexual tension.” said some boy as he came closer to it. The others came and looked at it closer.

“I can almost feel the wind blowing through my hair.” whispered a blond girl.

“Their soul mates.” whispered a red haired girl as she wiped a tear off her face.

“You can really feel all that just by looking at it?” I asked.

“Yes.” she said. “See how the artist managed to capture every detail of their embrace. I can feel what it must feel like for her to have her hands in his hair. I can feel his breath as he pants with desire for her lips to press on his.”

“I feel her body pressed against his, never able to pull her close enough.” whispered the first girl as she closed her eyes.

“He needs her like he needs air to breath.” said one of the boys.



Smokes by theonlykyla

Stupid, Stupid Izzy. What the fuck was I even thinking showing up at that bar tonight? Yes, I wanted to see Masen....or Edward...or whatever the fuck his name is. But, that's not my normal scene.

I should have known he was a player. He's to fucking good looking to not have a harem of women following his ass around.

And of course, he plays in a band, so that would only make the groupies even more available to him.

Why would he ask me to show up then? He knew he'd have plenty of women at his beck and call. 

Why would he ask me, plain, boring Izzy to show up to watch him play?

I remember how I used to fantasize about him after he first started working at the Smoke Shop. I couldn't even speak around him. Then I started dating Jake and he would rag on him every single time we'd see him, calling him a pansy-ass or wussy-boy. He was jealous 'cause he knew that Masen...er Edward was just my type.

The Green Eyed Monster was just my type. He was tall, lean, not to muscular....the tattoos and sex hair were out of control in driving my hormones crazy. But most of all, those piercing green eyes were like magnets for me. Every time he looked me in the eye, my panties flooded.



Just out of Reach by theonlykyla

I made my way to my room, grabbed the two pain pills that Rose had brought me earlier and swallowed them with the glass of water. I pulled the tie off the robe, dropped it to the floor and crawled into the bed, curling up around the pillow and let the tears fall freely.

What the fuck has happened to my life? How will anything ever be alright again?

My thoughts consumed me as the tears soaked my pillow. A short time later, after my eyes had wept all they could for the moment, I heard a small tentative knock on the door, followed by Edward's voice, “It's just me. I have your food.” He pushed the door open a crack as I nodded for him to come in.

He quickly walked around and set the tray on a side table before sitting on the side of the bed. He pushed my hair out of my face, noticing the wetness on my face and pillow. “Oh Bella, baby, I'm so sorry. I wish I could make this all go away and for you to never have been hurt.” His own tears silently falling from his eyes.

“Edward, I'm not sure if this is fixable.” I fought the sob that bubbled up in my chest as he dropped his head to his chest, letting his own sob escape his mouth.

“Bella, don't....please.....don't say that.” His voice was broken and filled with anxiety as he sobbed out the words.

He moved to lie beside me, our eyes filled with tears as we let the sadness fill the space between us. “I can't lose you, Bella....you are....my....life....my everything.” He choked out, bringing a hand up to wipe the tears from my cheeks.

“I love you, Bella. I've never stopped loving you. I will love you until the last breath I take.” Edward's voice was so thick with emotion it strangled me as a fresh round of tears spilled forth from my eyes.

“I love you too, Edward. But sometimes, love isn't enough.” I whispered through my own hoarse throat.



Just More by theonlykyla

I pull open the door and there they are, those two huge hunk of men, Jacob and Emmett. “Hi guys, come on in.” I say as I sweep my hand through the air, showing them in.

They both stop to half hug me. For gay men, they are very anti-public display of affection. I think it stems from the work they do and the machismo they both exude. It doesn't bother me, because I know that at some point, very soon, I'll have them both on their knees sucking my cock. It makes me laugh out loud to think about.

“Care to share what's so funny?” Emmett says, cocking an eyebrow at me as Jacob stands beside him eye fucking me.

“Oh nothing, just thinking about later on tonight, is all.” I laugh and try to regain my composure. “We don't have a lot of time, so we need to get to work. Do you need any tools or anything?” I ask Jacob.

“Fuck no, Jasper. I always have my own tools. Just show me where you want it and we'll get to work.” 

As I start to walk past him to head down the hallway, he palms my ass, causing me to jump a little.

“Hey now, none of that til my birthday boy gets home,” I tease him by wiggling my ass a little.



Midnight Sun by losttwisisters

I reached in and got some and put in up to her mouth.  I hoped that she wouldn't mind.  My unspoken question was answered when she opened her mouth.  I fed her the popcorn for a couple of minutes before she sucked my fingers into her mouth.

I felt my eyes roll in the back of my head and I could not help but to moan.  The Bella I was introduced to was shy but today it's like she was coming out of her shell so to speak.  She slowly took my fingers out of her mouth and she leaned onto me and wrapped her arms around my neck.
When I closed my eyes instead of sleep, I saw images of Bella and me together.  Together together.   

Oh my God that was indescribable.  I couldn’t help but chuckle now at her hesitancy but at the time I could see the real fear in her eyes.  She was worried that I would not like her body now after she had Eavan.  I didn’t tell her that I preferred her body now more than before.  Before she was a little too thin, all the pills and booze kept her too ‘up’ and she never ate.  Now she was perfect, all the right spots were filled out and her breasts…damn, they were nice before but now…yeah I already said it but perfect.   

And when she surprised me tonight by asking me to move in with them, well again I was speechless.  I knew she was ready for the move, I saw it in her eyes.  I also knew that Bella was strong enough to wait if she wasn’t ready so I grabbed all of my stuff while we were at my mom and dad’s house to pick up Eavan.  I brought it all back with me and tomorrow we would spend time organizing it.  I didn’t have much but Bella had become a perfectionist when it came to her living space.  The house was always clean and nothing was ever out of place.  Well nothing outside of Eavan’s toys that is.  She only put those away when Eavan went to bed but the rest of the house was in order.  It was a big change from the last time we lived together.  I just shook those feelings out of my mind because we were two totally different people than we were then, so it was no fair comparing us to them now. 

Bella always talked about the changes that I had made but she made more changes than I could keep up with as well.  She had matured and she was so damn wise now.  Not to mention her communication skills and the way she handles Eavan.  It is always spot on.  I still need some practice with that but Bella has it down pat.  I saw so many characteristics of my parents and Pops and Gran as well.  The decision to stay with my parents, I’m sure, wasn’t easy to make but I’m so glad she did now.  It gave her more examples of a stable home that she could model for our child and hopefully we would have more children in our future to practice on.  That idea brought me more joy than I realized.  This time I would certainly be around for all of it.  You could count on that.

It's You by losttwisisters

"Hey love are you ready for the bath?"
"Yeah I will be right there. I'm just getting our pf's ready."
I striped down and just was waiting on Bella to come in. I just had to figure out how to ask Bella to move in with me. I mean she's here most of the time anyway so it just makes sense. When she started to woek she would have a less time driving if she was coming from my house.
My Letters to You by Minnie Soleil
The asshat is sitting right next to me on deck, sporting a grin that goes on forever. I detect a dreamy look in his eyes. I can even see a sparkle in there. Suppressing the urge to roll my eyes is a heavy feat.

Way to rub it in my face, Cullen.”



Breach by Catastrophia

We were so behind that it was Thursday afternoon and I still hadn’t eaten anything. I found myself making stupid mistakes and knew I needed to take a break, but at the same time there were only two hours left until I headed out.
Jack had dictated that I wasn’t to stay past six for the next week or he would escort me out personally. Any attempts to tell him I was fine fell on deaf ears. He was the boss after all.
Edward hadn’t really spoken to me since I had returned but today he felt the need to address that I existed.
“Isabella, go eat something,” Edward spoke when I was midway through the Hansen file. I could see in my peripheral that his head had not turned in my direction, he was still staring at the screen.
“No,” I responded, my eyes still on the screen, my fingers typing away on the Hansen file.
“Go,” he commanded.
“I’m not hungry,” I responded. Didn’t he know he couldn’t tell me what to do anymore?
He slammed his hands down on his desk, startling me. My head snapped up to look at him and I watched him walk briskly out of the door. He returned a moment later and slammed something onto my desk.
“Eat it,” he demanded.
“No.”
“Eat the fucking granola bar before I shove it down your throat.”
I picked up the granola bar and threw it against the wall. It hit with a crack and fell to the floor.
“Oh, I’ve heard that threat before,” I spat up at him.
His eyes grew wide as he stared down at me. His mask slipped and I could see, just for a split second, the pain that lay beneath.
I had to admit it hurt to see that pain in his eyes, because if he was in pain I couldn’t help to wonder why he had separated us then. All that brought was a tightening pain in my chest and hope. I had to squash the hope.
Nothing good came with hope.




Till next week ladies and gentlemen....

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Week of 7-24-11-bnjwl- Worth the Burn by My Bella

Well it's that time again...gather around and bring your drink of choice so I can introduce you to a favorite fic of mine.  Has been since day one of this thing, I just can't turn away from it and the good thing is now it's complete.


Worth the Burn by My Bella

We start out to find out that Bella has been Alice's friend for years.  Edward is, of course, Alice's brother.  I think you see where this is going.  But not exactly...see Bella is a little more bad ass in this fic and Edward is a little more canon.  So they didn't always mix with each other.  Well, Bella never mixed with Edward but our dear sweet boy has had his eye on Bella for while.  Late one Halloween night the group gets together to go on a scavenger hunt that finds Bella and Edward paired up (thanks to sweet sister Alice) and the two finally see that there may be more to this strained friendship than what meets the eye.

We get to see these two hop on a rollercoaster ride of love that mimics real life in so many ways yet still has a fairytale quality about it.  It makes you cheer, scream, cry, beg, plead and jump up and down.

I love the realistic qualities of Edward while still remaining the sweet, suave man that we all love so much.  And this Bella will blow your socks off, she is strong, independent and makes you like her in spite of her flaws.  The rest of the group rounds out this duo and supports them through all their happiness and fuck ups.  You will fall in love with all of them all over again.

Enjoy Worth the Burn and be sure to tell her Peaches sent you!

Till next time...


bnjwl

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Teasers for week of 7-19-11


Lost in the Shadows bylvtwilight09

Jasper helps me out of the bed and grabs my bag that I packed for the hospital. Just before we go to head downstairs to leave, I remind Jasper to grab the baby’s car seat and bag from the nursery. Nodding his head, he runs halfway down the hall before turning around and coming back to me.

“Which room is Michael’s nursery babe?” Jasper asks.

I try to fight back the tears, but my voice cracks when I answer him, telling him it’s the room across the hall from Elliott’s. Jasper’s question just reminds me of how distant he’s been, that he doesn’t even know which room will belong to our new son. Jasper hears the change in my voice and sees the tears building up and asks what’s wrong, but I play it off as just pain from a contraction, not wanting to start an argument about how he hasn’t been an active participant in this pregnancy or marriage for the past six months.

We make our way downstairs, promising Rose and Emmett that we’ll call them as soon as the baby is born so they can bring Elliott to the hospital to meet his little brother. Jasper helps me into the car before getting in himself and speeds off towards the hospital, steering with one hand while the other holds mine the entire way. As we drive, I look at him and I can see the excited smile on his face.

“I love you Alice, always. Thank you for giving me another son.” He says as he briefly looks towards me before refocusing his eyes on the road. His words are touching, and I can tell by the way he looks at me that he means everything he said. I can only hope that things are beginning to change, starting to go back to how they used to be.

We get to the hospital and are quickly moved up to the maternity wing and into a room. Shortly after we arrive our families show up and the doctor checks me, letting me know I probably had another hour or two before I would need to push. After several hours and lots of pushing, screaming, and crying, Matthew Henry Whitlock is born. Jasper and I couldn’t be happier, and I let my own tears flow freely as I watch my husband holding our new son and look at me with tears in his own eyes as he whispers softly to me “Thank you.”

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Just Out of Reach by theonlykyla

I pulled myself over to the side of the bed, setting my feet on the floor, I needed to go to the bathroom. I never realized how hard it was to do something one handed. But I finally made my way off the bed and into the bathroom. It was a struggle to just go pee, but I managed through my grunts and groans. I washed my hand and opened the door to find Edward sitting on the side of the bed, looking at me with a pained mask upon his face. “Are you okay?” his voice was hoarse and scratchy. “I'm fine,” I said, making my way across the room to sit at the foot of the mattress.

 
“I was so worried about you.” His words floated through the air with a heaviness that caused my throat to develop a lump. Fighting back the tears that wanted to fall, I replied, “You should have been here with me.”

 
His head fell into his hands as his elbows rested on his knees, “I know that I've fucked up, Bella, and I just....” his head came up as one of his hands went to rub across his chest. “The thought of losing you forever, it's to much.....it's just...” he fell to his knees and crawled on the floor to a sitting position in front of me. “When I thought of the fact that you had left and disappeared just like the others in my life before you, I felt like my heart was going to explode.” His breathing became quick and he sucked in hard for a breath.

 
 “Edward, what happened? Why were you in the hospital?” I asked as I laid a hand on his shoulder, feeling his skin that was clammy and cold.

 
He raised his head, bringing his eyes, wet with tears and full of sorrow, to meet mine. “I had a panic attack, passed out and hit my head. They took me by ambulance to the hospital. Apparently, I was in and out of consciousness and wouldn't stop trying to leave, so they sedated me and tied me to the bed.” Pain gripped my heart at the thought of him in such a state of anxiety, and I wasn't there to soothe him.
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Chapter 36
I slowly walked to his bed, and placed my hand over his, careful not to disturb any of the needles and tubes attached to him. “Daddy.” I said though I knew he couldn't hear me. “I'm here now daddy. You have to get better for me because I need you. I need you to forgive me like I forgave you, so we can be a family again. I need us to be a family daddy, you and Jasper are all I have left, and I need you. I need you so much!”

It was at that point that the severity of the situation hit me and I lost it. I cried like I have never cried before. I cried for the loss of my mother, realizing I lost my father at the same time. I cried for the horrible relationship I had with my only parent left. I cried for everything my father had missed out in my life for the last five months. I cried for the frail beaten down man that lay in the hospital bed. I just cried.
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The Maid by one of eddie's girls  (the one shot is unposted so we're giving you the link to her profile to sign up for author alerts so when she posts you will know it!)


“You look like shit,” Rose told Bella.

“Is there something I can help you with Miss Rosalie?” Bella ignored the insult and concentrated on doing her job.

“Not really, just to tell you to get the fuck away from my brother. You have nothing to offer him, you have no education, no money, no kind of future to offer, and I can see you are a gold digging whore, just looking for the excuse to latch on to our family money,” The venom clear in Rosalie’s words.

“I assure you Miss Rosalie, I have no intentions to trap anyone or do I want anything to do with your families money,” Bella concentrated in not burning the meal she was preparing for lunch. She did not want Rosalie to see the emotions and feeling playing through her face.

“I’ve seen you coming out of his room after ‘cleaning’ adjusting your dress Isabella,” Rosalie used quotes around the word cleaning to accentuate that she knew what was really going on. The blush that creeped up Isabella’s face confirmed her suspicions.  “I thought so,” she said smugly.

“Please, Miss Rosalie don’t say anything to your parents. I will leave your bother alone, just please dont day anything,” the worry and panic evident in Bella’s voice.

“Oh I won’t say anything but you need to leave and leave yesterday,” Rosalie commanded, then left Bella to finish up what she was doing.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Week of 7-17-11-OOEG-The Demon in My Dreams-Littlecat358

To go along with our Author of the month here is my rec for this week...


by

Littlecat358

This story is about Bella a social worker, with a past that helps her relate to some of the kids she is in charge of. Edward the co-director for a group home for boys who has spent time in prison, and how they both come together. 

There are few cast of characters that we still no nothing about, how do they relate to Edward and Bella, how will they affect the characters desires to get together? 

This story starts off with Bella trying to place Emmett and his kid brother Tyler into a new foster home, after exhausting all her options Bella turns to The Cullen House Group Home. Edward and his brother Jasper run the group home for young boys to help steer troubled boys into a better life, Edwards past in prison helps the boys, open up and talk to him. Both Jasper and Edward are respected by the boys and some of the workers at social services, them being extremely good looking helps with that a bit. 

This story is only 6 chapters in at the moment but it grips you from the very beginning, leaves you wondering, who is Seth to Bella, What did Edward do to end up in prison, What is wrong with Tyler, and will Emmett be able to change his ways?

Okay so here is the official description by the author herself...

27 y.o. social worker Bella Swan has seen her fair share of troubled souls, but nothing like Edward Cullen, part owner & manager of The Cullen House Group Home. Will he allow her into his life? And can she survive the demons that haunt him?

Hope to see you following this story along with us... and don’t forget to let Littlecat know how much you are enjoying her story through a review. 

Have a great week and we will see you again next week with another great rec.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Author of the Month for July~Little Cat


I came across LittleCat358 by complete accident… actually let me rephrase that... it was luck… I subscribed to one of those great communities on FFn that post fun, new, well written stories. Unplanned Perfection (UP) was one of those stories I got that day, it was only about 5 chapters in at the time and I began to read, almost instantly from chapter one I was completely captivated. Of course I added the story to my alerts to that I could be notified each time she updated, and let me tell you every time that little email came into my phone, no matter where I was I ran to read it, sometimes sacrificing my eyes to read the tiny writing on my blackberry. The way that Littlecat writes grips you completely, she gives you enough information about the characters and the drama to make you crave more. The drama she adds is completely mystifying, her characters are well developed and have interesting histories… UP is now complete and she is posting a completely new story The Demons in my Dreams (DimD) but more on that story later… So here is our interview with this amazing author, we hope that you run out to read what she has so wonderfully written.

1.     Tell us as much about yourself as you would like to share.
           
            I'm a stay at home mom of three. I have my undergrad in Psychology and my Masters in Social Work, but am not really using it for employment. I work with a Domestic Violence shelter and I try to use what I know about human behavior when I'm writing. 
            I'm a runner and I love to snowboard, although my body is getting to the point where it's protesting when I push myself too hard. Doesn't stop me from doing it, I just need longer to recuperate. LOL.  I'm also a soccer and dance mom. My life kind of revolves around my kids, but I'm learning that I have to take care of myself too, which is harder than I ever thought it would be.
            I've been writing since I was about twelve. During the grunge phase I wrote a lot of really morbid poetry and I think my teachers thought there was something wrong with me, but I just loved the imagery that certain words created. From there I just started writing short stories and even longer ones. I had one when I was sixteen that was almost complete and I was going to try and submit it to a publisher, but I couldn't bring it full circle and eventually gave up on it. I never knew if I was any good.
            It's only been in the last three years that I've really started to get serious about writing again. I am absolutely loving it and it's always good to get the feedback.

2. How and when did you become aware of Twilight?

            I remember seeing the trailer for the first movie and thinking it would be fun to go see, but it never happened. A friend recommended it to me when it was coming out on DVD so I was able to watch it, but then had to borrow the books because there were parts that I really got confused at. The rest is history.  

3. When was the first time you came across FanFiction?
           
            I guess I didn't actually come across it, but rather was tossed in unceremoniously. My same friend who recommended the movie told me about fanfiction. At first I thought it was just a ridiculous thing, but she swore to me that it was fantastic so I dove in. She was right. I was stunned by the quality of writing. I have found so many amazing stories and authors and friends.

4. Where do get your inspiration for your stories?
           
            I have no idea. Sometimes it's a song, sometimes it's a personal experience. It doesn't have to be anything big. The story usually writes itself around that one tiny little plot bunny. I get ideas at the weirdest times too. If I'm given ten minutes of silence to think, I can have a whole scene planned out in my head, even if I don't have the story figured out yet.

5. Do you write for any other fandoms or just Twilight?
           
            No, just Twilight. It will probably always be that way. I'm not sure I could move on to other fandoms, but I guess I will never say never.

6. What are you favorite character to write?
           
            It depends on the story. You know what's funny is that my favorite character to write in UP was little Charlie. He almost became a part of my family. It was very weird. In DiMD, it's actually Emmett. He just reminds me of so many teenage boys I have known. I want to hug him and throttle him at the same time.

7. Who would you say is the easiest character to write for you?
           
            Surprisingly Edward. I love trying to think like a guy. I guess it doesn't really matter the story anymore, his thoughts flow better than the others. Although, if you ask a guy, maybe I'm getting it completely wrong. Who knows.

8. Who is your favorite Twilight character?
           
            I'm not sure I have a favorite. I like little bits and pieces of each of them, but if I had to choose, I would say Carlisle. It could just be because whenever I picture him I picture Pfach, but I love how confident, kind, intelligent and understanding he is. Being eternally sexy helps too.
           
9. Which character would you identify with the most?
           
            Are we talking the original Twilight or the fanfics I write? The original story I think Esme, although I'm not nearly as patient as her....or as proper. But I do tend to be a nurturer and that's how I see her.
            In fanfic it depends on the story. I always put a little bit of myself in the Bella character, especially in The Demons in My Dreams. I think she's more like me than UP Bella.

10. How has your experience with the posting sites been? I.e. Fanfiction.net, The Writers Coffee shop, Twilighted or any other sites you may post on.
           
            I only post on FanFiction.net and Twilighted, but it's been amazing, although I'm not a huge fan of the anonymous flames, but what can you do? You have to take the bad with the good.

11. Do you have any grievances with your experiences?
           
            Ah ha ha. Of course I do. I don't think I'd be human if I didn't. When I started posting UP, I never, ever expected the reaction that I got. The immense emotional reactions were a little overwhelming. And the range was incredible. The same scene in a chapter could have some people raging at Bella while others raged at Edward and still others raged at the family. And then a few raged at me. I can still remember the very first flame that I got and I was in tears. I thought, “why am I doing this?” I thought that over time I would grow thicker skin, but, not gonna lie, it's still tough.

12. What do you prefer writing - fluff, angst, smut
           
            I love writing angst and drama, but over the course of UP I've also learned that I like writing the other stuff too. I like to put a little bit of everything in my stories, especially humor. I think everyone needs a little extra humor in their life. Life isn't one big ball of angst so I try not to write it that way.
            The first lemon I ever wrote was Bella and Edward's first experience in UP, the not so nice one, and I was really nervous. It was meant to have a wide range of emotions in it and it was essentially Edward's introduction to the story. I had no idea how people were going to react. Now, I really enjoy writing them. I try to make it more about the thoughts and emotions than the actually actions, but sometimes a good f*ck without thought is needed too. LOL.

13. Do you bring personal experiences into your stories?
           
            I do, but I'm not sure I want to say which ones. LOL. It's a lot of little things. Little Charlie in UP was full of my own personal experiences with my kids. There are also little things. Probably too many to point them all out that have actually happened to me.
            DiMD is much more personal to me overall. I have taken a lot of true stories and meshed them together. It often takes me back to that place when I'm writing and I'm both nostalgic for those days and relieved that I'm not doing it anymore.

14. What kind of research do you do for your stories if any?
           
            I try to do as much research as possible, right down to checking out flight schedules to make sure that I have the timing right. I've had to do research on the legal system and the jail terms for various crimes. For DiMD, I have a lot of knowledge about the foster care system so I use what I know, even though it may not be the same in Washington State. If I don't know, I try to remember to admit it and ask for a little bit of creative freedom, cause when it comes right down to it, sometimes it's hard to find some of the info.

15. What is your favorite book and part of the Twilight Saga?
           
            It's been so long since I've actually read the books I can't remember. LOL.  Although I wasn't thrilled with many parts of Breaking Dawn, I have to admit that I'm a sucker for an HEA.

16. What is your least favorite?
           
            New Moon. Mostly because I couldn't handle the time apart. I kept looking ahead to see when Edward would come back. LOL. That was my least favorite part of the whole saga too.

17. Which was the first FanFic story you read?
                       
            I believe that it was Wide Awake. I was told that it was “The Holy Grail of Fanfiction.” How does one ever turn away from that? I had to read and I got sucked in.

18. If you write multiple fics, which one has been the most enjoyable for
you to write and why?
           
            That's really hard to say. UP was my first, my baby. It was a monster in so many ways. I think I ran the gamut of emotions along with the characters and readers. Sometimes for the same reasons, sometimes for different reasons. I learned a whole lot about my ability as a writer and about the “politics” of the literary world. It's also the very first story I've ever completed so it will always hold very special meaning for me.
            DiMD is close to my heart. I loved working in the foster care system, even though it sometimes felt like I was chasing my tail. I can't tell you how many hours I spent banging my head against my desk. But the kids made it worth it. Sharing that through writing a piece of fiction is really rewarding.